Decisions, Decisions, Decisions!

I have always been rather painfully indecisive. People used to joke and say it was because I'm a Libra - and maybe it is - though I never put much stock in astrology. I've also been told it's part of anxiety - the fear of making the wrong choice tends to leave one unable to make any choice. That sounds a bit more like something I can relate to!

Obviously, this does not mean I cannot make any decisions ever, that would be more than a bit absurd. I do make decisions on a daily basis, though they are rarely ever life impacting decisions. Those are the ones I stumble with - the decisions that when made will change something about my life.

My usual method of coming to such a decision is lists - lots and lots of lists. Pros, cons, maybes, what ifs, everything gets written down and analyzed beyond all normal thinking. I ask for advice from those I trust. I over think, to the point of exhaustion and annoyance. In the end, even with all the lists and thinking until I want to scream and the helpful or not so helpful advice of others - I still can't decide what I should do.

THIS DRIVES ME CRAZY. I want few things more than I want to be a person who just goes for it (whatever it may be), a person who just makes those snap decisions and takes a leap of faith that it will all work out the way it is supposed to. Mostly, I want to be able to trust that I am capable of making a good decision, the right decision for myself. Wouldn't that be nice!?!

I've got some decisions to make, and I can already tell my over-thinking brain is kicking into gear. Maybe this time - I'll take that leap of faith, go with my gut and be done with it.

That's a decision I'll have to make when the time comes. :)