It was recently brought to my attention that I seem to find difficulty in taking compliments. It's true, I do, I always have. Well, maybe not always. It is yet another effect that the anxiety disorder has heaved upon me. One that I've begun to find very irritating.
I mean really, what is so hard about just saying "Thank you" and going on my merry way? Nothing, I tell you! Nothing at all! It's not difficult, I just make it that way.
Inside my head I hear all the wonderful comments and truly sincere sentiments being sent my way and inexplicably determine myself to be unworthy of such praise. Why? Who the heck knows, I certainly don't.
That may not be entirely true...I do know a bit about the why. What for some may be a joyous thing, having someone tell them of their glory, is for others a glaring reminder of broken self-esteem.
To not be able to see in oneself what others seem so easily to find is utterly frustrating. And really rather stupid, if you think about it, which I have been.
Therefore, I have decided it's time to do something about this irritating character flaw. And what a perfect time of year to begin this quest for self-approval!
I've never really been a person who makes a New Year's resolution, as I never found it necessary to add something else that would go undone to my list of things to do. However, as this seems more 'doable' than promising not to buy things I don't really need, I'm optimistic that I will stick to it.
So after reading this, if you are one of those lovely people who says something complimentary to me and I begin to whine about not being worthy, just tell me to shut up!!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
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4 comments:
Can I say, 'Shut your face' in my Michael Caine voice when the time arises? Great post. x
I like these 'turning a proverbial corner' posts. As the Michael Caine impression has already had dibs called on it, I'm going to take the ultra-English diplomatic version of 'Would you kindly be quiet'
What a lovely post. and before you say anything 'Shh!'
Well, I can't rudely tell you off, even though I was brought up in New York City. (Yo! Shut it!)
So, I'd probably say, "You hush now." even though I'm not from the South.
But one never knows WHAT will come out of my mouth until it does, heh.
Very nice post!
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